Sick and tired of the chaos

This chaos I call a life is getting the better of me lately I wanna believe everyone is good and trust them but then I can’t bc I don’t trust anyone I can’t even trust myself bc fuck idk if it’s a delusional moments or another imagination situation where it’s not even real the shit I remember sometimes ain’t even real or if it’s real it’s vaguely real bc my delusional ass twisted and turned shit in my brain and I remember things way different then they happened 😳🙄😳🙄😩😭🤣😂🤣😂 best I can do is ride this hell of an emotional ride that I barely feel bc I’m so numb to feeling anything thanks to schizophrenia. I miss being emotional and happy then mad then sad fuck I’ve gone so numb I can’t even pretend to feel anymore. It’s stupid af

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Published by Tara-len Davis

im just your everyday weird kid grown up i was always different and never made since sure as fuck did not fit in or ran with the popular crew... i was more of the jock who ran with the kids who either went to juvie or smoked pot but i didnt bc i had to pass tests for sports and ill be honest i was terrified of my dad who never even really got on to me but i always had this odd respect but fear of seeing him truly mad bc i was a alot as a child and it made him patient. now im grown with my own kid and still the exact same as back then just a little wiser and way less fucks to give

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