I have schizophrenia and I’m paranoid I’ve also got PTSD and bipolar disorder. I’m just now accepting it in my mid 30s so figured I’d express what it’s like being me bc I know I’m difficult this may help someone who loves someone with mental illness…

My Latest Posts

• so they upped my shot doseSeptember 24, 2022
  like i knew they was gonna up it and shit but i didn’t expect it to make my blood pressure drop but didn’t think upping my mgs would make the…More
• tonight is a motherSeptember 22, 2022
  FUCKER KINDA NIGHT!!!!!! like check it out i dont remember much of anything but from the conversation had earlier today with a family member i know i fucked up didn’t…More
• sorry i keep dipping outSeptember 7, 2022
  i dont mean to just dip out on this blog like i do for days at a time but i tend to get myself side tracked and lost for days…More
• crazy how differently we remember things…September 3, 2022
  I remember things so much differently then how my mom and siblings remember shit. maybe i just perceived it differently like maybe because of how my brain is wired differently,…More
• i am failing at lifeAugust 28, 2022
  like what in the actual fuck am im doing with my life i cant keep up with my dr appointments i cant keep up with moving from one place to…More
• Aaaaaahhhhh monstersAugust 13, 2022
  So moving back to my gmas house to help take care of my gpa was one thing but to move into my momma house at 33 is a different story…More
• Sooo still have not made it to the pharmacyAugust 11, 2022
  I hate how much different everything seems to be and how much more hazy shit seems to be. Went grocery shopping with my mom she kept telling me it’s okay…More
• Sir sleeping hard last nightAugust 11, 2022
• (no title)August 10, 2022
  That girl who you call cold and heartless That girl who seems to not care at all about anything That girl who you cant understand bc she doesn’t react That…More
• sooo i fucked up also sorry i been mia i know i suck at staying on top of shit latelyAugust 7, 2022
  ok so yall i kept forgetting and putting off calling the pharmacy idk why the shot works and it works great for me, but im over a week past due…More

Believe me when I say I wish it was as simple as it’s made out to be or thought to be to just realize it’s in my head but it’s really confusing and hard to tell the difference has made not be able to stand having people around me for long and better be rare bc I don’t trust anyone

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